a funny feeling

i've got this funny feeling.
i feel worthless, tired, beaten.
i feel like nothing.
to you.
i'm not pretty.
i find it harder everyday to look in the mirror.to face you.
you judge.
you hate.
i cry.
it hurts.

this feeling.
is pain
is suffering
is not being enough.

not pretty enough.
not thin enough.
not loud enough.
not smart enough.

i'm not enough.
will i be enough?
who knows.

then i met you.

you made me realize.
im not pretty enough.
im not smart enough.
im not loud enough.

you make me feel.
beautiful.
brilliant.
well-spoken.

you make me feel.
butterflys in my stomach.
light headed.
and warm.

i used to feel hate.
distress.
empty.

now i feel love.
happiness
complete.


i know im not enough.
i never will be.


but knowing that you can settle for that.

gives me a funny feeling