Recycled, An Old Post Brought A New

appearence.
we all know it, and know it well.
it is everywhere.

its when we find things appealing, pleasing and beautiful.


why is it that i seem to find SO many people to have a fantastic appearence, yet
i have only found one boy who thinks of me that way?!

not that i find every boy as wonderful as i find this one. he's so special to me.
but hes the only boy who says to me your beautiful.

is it a secret.

just as i keep others who i find pleasent in their appearence, a secret.

i dont tell.

maybe they dont tell either.

but its weird.
i feel so ... i dunno.

i guess discouraged.

i guess i lost hope.

i guess....?


why are feelings so overbearing?
they are all i think about.


im so obsessed with what people think of me,
how i think of people...


i just i guess i wish everything was more black and white.

i wish i just knew if someone liked me, and if they didnt.

im sick of people hiding their feelings.
im sick of people being fake around me.
im sick of it all.


black and white...that's all i want...